A break from our regularly scheduled program

Last night I turned off routers and spent a couple hours just sitting with my wife. It was refreshing and amazingly good for my attitude. Time slips by too fast, and when I hyper-focus on temporal things, it seems that ball stays in motion once it is in motion.

So this morning I was planning to get back to my regular program of networking-related topics. I sat down, dug up some info on frame-relay, started reading about virtual circuits, DLCI, LMI, BECN, FECN...picked up my guitar and started to play a bit.

I find that playing is what I'm wanting to do with my time more than anything these days. Maybe it's a mid-life crisis, maybe it's just what I'm actually programmed to do. Either way, it's what I want to do and at this point in my life I'm too old to do anything I don't want to do any more. I figure if you don't get to do what you want when you turn 40, what good is turning 40?!

So I started a little discipline that I hope to continue through the rest of the summer, if not the rest of my life. I'm trying develop my song-writing to be productive at the moment I pick up a guitar. I play and sing whatever comes to mind, recording on my phone (until I can actually squeeze some time to have my home recording system actually worked out and always available) and not discriminating or editing. I'm just pouring it out and later I'll go back to edit. Granted, the editing needs to happen or all you have is a bunch of free-associated drivel, but for now I'm longing to get the creative juices flowing again.

So, I say a most heart-felt "Thank you" to my lover, my song and my best friend for supporting me through the nonsense, loving me in spite of myself and always reminding me gently and lovingly what is important and lasting in life. Sandra, I love you...and don't forget, I'm your density...